Today, I feel sunny with a few clouds. Clouds representing if I’m a good enough writer, because I don’t know if I could do anything without offending people if I were to create something based on real people. But other than that, I’m feeling quite happy.
Saranghae Says
K Pop Opinions
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I’m so sorry for not telling you my name, I continue to think about that moment every day and it’s been messing with my mind lately. I wish I could’ve told you that I wanted to date you, honestly I wasn’t ready for dating or anything like that. December was the hardest time in my life regarding us when I was 16/17 when you first started talking to me, I felt angry for not having a boyfriend. I was crying so hard when I went home and I hated being anxious about having to be a girl with a boyfriend. The reason why I didn’t tell my name was because of anxiety. I think what would’ve happened when we were dating is that we would kiss each other and hold hands. I think that we would go on dates and then we make out, maybe. We would probably talk about possibly making it official. I think we would have gotten to know each other better. I feel like a bad person for letting you go and I am so sorry. I wish I would’ve said something, but I didn’t want to be awkward or embarrassed. I just hope you’re happy, I’m sorry about that day and nothing I can do about it will fix that. Nothing will fix how much sadness and pain I feel about you and that day. If I told you that I loved you back then, I think you would tease me and say I love you too. Sometimes I felt like a loser because I didn’t have a boyfriend or at least didn’t have you. I’m also sorry for ignoring your friend who supposedly had feelings for me, I thought he was joking around. That’s why I ignored him. Apparently, I can’t tell if he was joking or being serious. I’m picking the latter because the way you were yelling “What’s your name?” was serious.
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I actually like looking at the rain falling from the sky and I like watching horror movies. I like writing and watching crime stories.
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My happy place is my bedroom where I’m writing stories on my phone, it helps me with getting into the fantasy world and escape reality. I feel the happiest when I’m writing about whatever I want especially K Pop idols. I also love writing stories when it’s rainy.
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When it’s bedtime, I tend to go to sleep at like 2-3 am. I don’t think it’s that bad because I don’t really get tired that early/ easily at night. I would say that I’ve been sleeping good, not like horrible. But I think that the 2-3 am timeframe could worry my mom, but in my opinion I think it’s considered a good amount of sleep.
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I don’t like it when people talk bad about me especially when one time I got very upset at someone for calling me out on my quietness when I was at the dance like 1 or 2 years ago. It really hurts me and I didn’t want to return to the dance because of that.
I get really upset when I mess up, whether it’s editing or writing. I’m like “Why can’t I write this thing right?” Or “Why can’t I spell this correctly?” I know it’s normal but I get really angry about it.
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I have a habit of texting people in the morning and my mom hates it. I get distracted easily and I move too slow. When it’s evening/ night time, I just be texting people late at night. I’ve never had any plans to stop it. Hopefully, I’ll try some tips soon on stopping it as soon as possible.
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My day was great, the teachers were talking about students that they had in their lives. One of the students I actually knew from middle school and in middle school, during that time was crazy and chaotic. I don’t even want to remember it. I know that the conversation about him wasn’t funny, but the way Mrs. Ortega described the Russian mom was kind of funny.
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I’ve been called Tay Tay, Tay, and Tilly. I got the nickname Tilly because there was another girl named Taylor who used the name Tay Tay. I went on Google and found Tilly. I picked it because it was cute and it wasn’t complicated. I was originally going to pick Tate, but I didn’t like it and it was bland. So, I picked Tilly.
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- Rewatching the same horror/ thriller movies
- Writing fanfiction
- Eating Oreos/ Chip Ahoy cookies
- Extended naps
- Quiet time
Saranghae Says 