Saranghae Says

I’m so sorry for not telling you my name, I continue to think about that moment every day and it’s been messing with my mind lately. I wish I could’ve told you that I wanted to date you, honestly I wasn’t ready for dating or anything like that. December was the hardest time in my life regarding us when I was 16/17 when you first started talking to me, I felt angry for not having a boyfriend. I was crying so hard when I went home and I hated being anxious about having to be a girl with a boyfriend. The reason why I didn’t tell my name was because of anxiety. I think what would’ve happened when we were dating is that we would kiss each other and hold hands. I think that we would go on dates and then we make out, maybe. We would probably talk about possibly making it official. I think we would have gotten to know each other better. I feel like a bad person for letting you go and I am so sorry. I wish I would’ve said something, but I didn’t want to be awkward or embarrassed. I just hope you’re happy, I’m sorry about that day and nothing I can do about it will fix that. Nothing will fix how much sadness and pain I feel about you and that day. If I told you that I loved you back then, I think you would tease me and say I love you too. Sometimes I felt like a loser because I didn’t have a boyfriend or at least didn’t have you. I’m also sorry for ignoring your friend who supposedly had feelings for me, I thought he was joking around. That’s why I ignored him. Apparently, I can’t tell if he was joking or being serious. I’m picking the latter because the way you were yelling “What’s your name?” was serious.